The pain of leaving the church is part of the truth of leaving the church. But when our soul calls us to do hard things, we do hard things. So I am doing hard things.
A powerful moment with God’s love for women started my journey out of the Mormon church.
My fingers
Are always sticky
It seems
It's not an apron string being cut
I swear it's actually a flesh wound
Inflicted with violence and prejudice
Bleeding and raw
I watch this little baby
Who shouldn't be in my bed
But is
The feeling that I've lost myself
That girl who felt
Powerful
Unstoppable
The story of Benjamin is a story of miracles.
Women that I respect and love are scared and hurt and angry about the Kavanaugh hearings. Some are seeing political machinations and they fear for the integrity of our democracy. Some are afraid of potentially false accusations negatively affecting their lives in the future.
And some of us are being forced to confront our own traumas that we would much rather leave in the past and never think about again.
Ruth’s real love in life was people. She made you feel like an old friend from the moment you met her. She never forgot a birthday and spent hours of her life on her phone and computer keeping in touch with all of the people she loved all over the world.
There is too much sadness and trouble in the world. I don't know how to process all the things that are hard and wrong.